Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Fickle

I am a Southern girl.  I absolutely love the South.  You cannot persuade me to feel otherwise.  Born, raised, and educated in Mississippi, I am very attached to where I am from.  I love the tall pine trees, the huge live oaks, the enormous hydrangea bushes, the sweet tea, the grits, the cornbread and peas, the hugs when you meet/greet everyone, the MS gulf coast, the yes ma'ams, the no sirs, the y'alls, the drawls, and the football.  Yes, there are arguably more beautiful places, more sophisticated places, places with more to do, places that are more "hip", but there is no other place that feels the same to me, no other place that resides so deep in my heart.  With the exception of a small stint in Houston, TX, I have been in OK since I graduated from Southern Miss in 1995.  I am now married to an OK boy and my kids are all Okies, born right here in Tulsa.  Basically, I am outnumbered at this point!  The Okies have it.  However, I do not let my Southern roots lie dormant.  I find lots of opportunities when I am cooking, writing thank you notes, talking about my family, telling stories, to leave a little bit of the South with my girls so they will have a taste of my background.  Will's turn is coming!

Although I do love our life here, I cannot say I do not long to move "home".  I think that feeling gets stronger the older I get, the older my kids get, and possibly, the older my folks get.  I miss lots of "things" about home, but also, and most importantly, I miss my parents, family and friends from home.  However, our careers led us here and now Bill's career keeps us here.  And again, I am outnumbered!  My husband loves OK about as much as I love MS and my kids know nothing else.  So, here we are, out on the pasture!  There are no tall pine trees, no live oaks, no hydrangea bushes, no magnolia trees.  The winters are cold in my book, springtime brings major wind, and summer...well, let's just skip the temperature evaluation this summer!  Bill knows that I take exception to this treeless pasture from time to time.  But then there are days I look out there and think...wow, that's beautiful and I'm thankful for this place.  I'm thankful my kids have such a fun spot to grow, explore, discover and call home.  Thankful for the family we have here and the many good friends I have made over the years.  So, I'm fickle....very fickle about living out here on this OK pasture.  The jury is still out.  To help explain this further, here are a few pics defending my love/hate relationship with this place!         


Hate....the grass fires that come eerily close to our barn and horses in the wee small hours of the night.


Love.....the view of a rainbow from my back porch

Hate.....winters like this! 


Love....a beautiful, quiet sunrise but hate that the little tree you see there is the largest one in my yard!

Hate....the grass fires!  Hey - there are lots of 'em! 

Love.....a new calf!  Who wouldn't!?


Hate...pulling in from a long day to see this in your yard.  Hmmm?  Star Lake Ranch missing one of its cows?



Love....seeing my girls enjoy an afternoon exploring.


Love....another great sunrise!

Always, always love the sunsets!

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